It’s that time again ladies and gents, much to my dismay I find myself a bit of a booze boy on the weekends the gaps between nights out closing together. I have only once drank 2 days in a row since I pledged to kerb my drinking , but the gaps I intended to have between drinks was supposed to be months not weeks.
Training this year has taken a hard hit…am not sure but is there some irony in that?. I’ve barely made it to kung-fu or capoeria and I feel a little chunkier for it and my mind more clouded. I still feel quite upbeat but nothing like that pure feeling after exercise. After training I almost always feel superb, a new kind of energy with a cleansed outlook on life , suddenly the horizon is unvisited rather than unreachable.
So , its time once again to throw in the towel , admit defeat and realise that I am not quite shot of booze, it’s just too tempting at the minute and its costing me time and money and of course my health.
I want to sit out at the bar near work basking in the sun surrounded by those less clothed laughing , soaking up the joviality. But good nights out have to come after a fair degree of abstainance in my eyes, these days anyway. Booze wrecks my ability to appreciate booze. I get too into drinking , eager to neck my pint so I can get another drink , the conversation takes a hit once I am close to an empty glass as I get more concerned about my lack of liquid.
Also there is a real naff sense of dread on a hangover. When I recover from a late night my body really kicks in with the am-dram, I feel like death and the whole immediate world will know about it. There is that sense of unease , that tender heart beat , those odd fluctuations in the rythmn , the sore head slowly healing with every new re moistened part of the brain a realisation that all is not well with the complex system that makes up body and mind.
So the plan is 9 weeks no booze , no cigarettes , as before. I must be diligent and ensure I not only not drink and smoke but I also get back into the training and start to really feel good.
Fruit and veg , more reading , more studying , more running , training , more of the good things , less living in the shadows , curtains drawn on a hangover.
List to follow for now my intentions are known, that’s the important bit started.